Crazy

I'm going crazy. Having nothing to do is horrible. All I do is sit around all day and watch TV or go on Facebook and Twitter. I wish I had summer school right now. I also wish the 12 places I applied to for a job at would call me since 2 Dick's Sporting Goods already rejected me. It's been so bad that I watched BET for 7 hours yesterday. Right now, I'm sitting in my living room watching the Science Channel while listening to Pandora on my phone. I just wanna do something, anything. But preferably something that doesn't cost money or is fairly cheap. When I didn't really want a job, I'd get calls back and now that I actually want one I don't.

Having all this time to do nothing isn't fun at all. I'm running out of patience with everything. I don't like having so much free time to think of things. It makes everything more complicated than it has to be. Ok whatever, I'm gonna sleep now so I can just do nothing tomorrow too.

I'm Feeling You, I Wanna Get To Know You

Good summer so far. Still need a job. Stupid obamaconomy. Still need to learn how to step up to the plate. Easier said than done. Short sentences cool guy. Tired so I will sleep now. Need to get rid of the beer smell in the house tomorrow. Maybe it'll happen on Thursday again. My arm hurts and I don't know why. Man up K-Sean. You won't get an opportunity like this again. CG third person talking. You'll never learn.

2009 NBA Championship Laker Parade

The Lakers parade was amazing. Totally worth waiting in line for 3 hours and getting sunburned all over my body. Running on championship fumes all day. Who needs sleep? Definitely not Winky, Risky, Sleepy, Lil' Pepe, etc.







more pictures here:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2010083&id=200400096&l=a7f3fa5a5a

I should be sleeping...

But I can't. We're leaving for the Lakers parade in an hour or so but I just can't sleep. Maybe I'm excited, maybe I'm disappointed in myself, maybe it's both. I know I said I was gonna work on changing but it's definitely harder than I thought. I desperately need to and quickly before it negatively affects me more than it already has. Man up K-Sean. Grow a pair.

This Is An Update On What We've Been On As of Late

I think it's time for me to update this garbage. I never really intended to use this blog so I don't really know why I made it. It's currently 3:40 in the morning and I'm just sitting here listening to music while uploading my last batch of Lakers highlights for the season so I decided to write on my blog. I know my other posts have been pretty insignificant, but no one reads this shit anyway. At least I don't think anyone does.

So, the last couple months since I last updated have been alright. Lakers are back where they belong, K-Sean isn't as emo as usual for various reasons and I have the whole summer off. It's kind of been an up and down last few months though. Mainly due to the fact that I over-analyze everything and lack the initiative and drive to pursue anything. Well I have the drive but it never seems to materialize into anything of value. I'm slowly learning that each journey begins with one step (corny I know). The problem with me is that I always have difficulty taking that first step. Call it a lack of confidence, a lack of motivation or whatever but I can just never seem to find it within myself to be who I know I can be. Whether it's with school, life, etc. It only took me a couple years to realize that life is what you make of it. I've been pretty hard on myself and it began to negatively affect me. While it may not have shown, I really was not happy with myself at all. I know better days are ahead of me because I will no longer let me hold myself down. I'm still a bit of a pessimist and I know I need to fix that. Old habits die hard as they say. Starting today, I won't always dwell on the negative side of a situation or always expect the worse. Yea, it's easier said than done but I know I can do it. Or maybe I'm just all talk. We'll see.

I feel kind of weird writing all this stuff down. It does feel good letting it out though. No homo. I've always thought that it was weird for people to write about what they were feeling for the world to see but I do see why someone would do so. It's kind of therapeutic. I still do feel pretty lame for doing this regardless. Who knows if I'll ever update this again?